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Kalma is a witch; not a normal witch, an immortal witch, with power over death. She is also a Princess and a middle child, which causes her no end of frustration. Wanting to feel like she is doing something with her life, Kalma embarks on a journey where she must solve the mystery of missing Death Witch children. With the help of her colorful sisters and a Servant of Death, she gets more than she bargained for, and her life and the life of her people will never be the same.
(Some things may be exaggerated for comedic effect…or not )
Yes the title of this blog post is funny, but in a not so funny
I have recently developed a love of a TV show called Criminal
Minds. It takes place in the center of the FBI Behavioral Analysis Unit…You
know the profilers who help catch serial killers and other super baddies.
I wanted to be a profiler when I was young (and a
paleontologist, but I digress) and have had a fascination with serials killers
and abnormal psychology for years. I knew then that if I went down that path it
might drive me crazy and I would never have a normal life because it would
consume me…So I went a different path, I’ve always regretted it a little.
This show is GREAT, they use a lot of actual terminology,
science, psychology and tactics that are used in real life profiling, so I get
into it. As in my husband and I start having detailed discussions about the
subjects and I dream in BAU.
I started with season one about a month ago and am already into
season five, finally last night I had to tell my husband we were taking a
break, at least a week of not watching this intense, sometimes scary, dark and
super entertaining show. I have binged watched a lot of programs and never had
a problem before; Pushing Daisies, Doctor Who, Big Bang Theory,
Community, Gilmore Girls and more…never before has my imagination jumped so far
that it started to affect how I react to others.
I have always been cautionary, I try not to talk to strangers,
don’t walk alone at night, meet new people in public, always tell someone where
I am going, keep an eye and possibly a hand on my children at to zoo, park
etc.. Constant Vigilance (Mad Eye Moody style), don’t wear ear buds on public
trans or while taking a walk…All things I have learned over the years of how
now to be a victim, like not helping anyone, especially guys who have broken
arms or cars. (BundY!) My oldest daughter will tell you if you talk to
strangers you wind up taken from your family and cut up in little pieces in a
wall some place…. Simply because horrible things happen to people who don’t
know the score of baddies out there.
Let me clarify, my kids are not afraid of life or people, in
fact the opposite is true, so when they are smiling and waving and wanting to
talk to EVERYONE, I also want them safe and to understand what can lie out
there. I am the same way. I make friends easily, chat up the book store clerk,
have a few drinks at the bar, but no way am I wandering into an alley with a
strange dude, ya know? When we go to the book store I let my eldest take my
youngest to the kid section while I browse YA and romance, but we have rules
and I check in with them. I feel like I tread the boundary between too
lax and over protective really well.
However this last week I have been seeing bad guys where there
are not, sometimes even in my own home. My imagination is screaming at me that
there are molesters at my kid’s day care, anyone who even looks at my child for
a second is suddenly a horrible pedophile and at any time my kids are going to
be snatched from my front yard. I have found myself questioning the motives of
family and friends in regards to their kind actions towards my daughters and I
have to say, when YOU realize you are going crazy it is a new experience,
especially if that experience is in extreme paranoia.
I know my family, I know my friends, these are good awesome
people who do not need some whack a doodle (Me) profiling them on
the side just in case they are a psychopath and I feel bad for my negative dark
thoughts of the past week.
Let me tell you how I finally realized I had gone way into the
land of the nut job:
I always check on my kids before bed, but now I find myself
checking windows and worrying about whether the noise I heard was someone
breaking in to slaughter us all in the night…Trying to sleep while also trying
to figure out , “was that the cat or a homicidal maniac?” Not easy.
Sunday after I took my normal pregnancy nap and dreamed….. I
awoke from a nap and the house was quiet too quiet and when I went out there
was no one in the house. I called the police and they found my husband dead in
the park and someone had stolen my five year old. Waking up and
figuring out it was still Sunday and the house was just too quiet
almost threw me into a panic, I grabbed my phone and practically darted into
the living room, to find…My husband watching world cup while my youngest was
taking a nap.
One of the final straws on the “You are cray cray knock it off”
camel’s back came this morning. I dropped my youngest off at daycare and a man
walked in after me…He didn’t have a child with him and I instantly went. THAT
IS SUSPICIOUS! I signed my kid in, made sure she was properly hugged and kissed
and went back to the car, on my way out I heard him simply ask about his time
card….However I memorized what he looked like and what he was wearing and
driving, sure that in a hour I would get a call that he was holding the day
care hostage or had shot the place up, or even kidnapped some of the staff and
or kids…and I WANTED TO BE ABLE TO GIVE THE POLICE AN ACCURATE DESCRIPTION.
So I am taking a break you beautifully horrible and yet
addicting Criminal Minds….before I freak out and lock us all in our house with
dehydrated food, a year’s supply of water and first aid and start home
schooling my kids.
Bad things happen it’s life, it sucks, I do not need to think
about what COULD and just deal with it if it DOES. Hopefully now the men around
me will stop looking like sadist perverts and go back to normal.